Thursday, March 31, 2005

Final Oral Argument

Advice from last week's oral argument: "Since you do stmt of the facts next week, dont be drawn out, just get to the point"

Conscientious Aisha dutifully copies this down and sets about implementing it into her argument.

Advice from this week: "Your stmt of the facts should be long, you just got to the point..."

Me: To quote Derek Zoolander's nemesis " I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!"

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Rotten Tomatoes

So I found this website and its really cool, www.rottentomatoes.com, you can basically go on there and get reviews from ver 200 critics about a particular movie, and it tells you the general consensus to know whether it's a fresh tomatoe or a rotten one:).

I opened a journal on there, I dont know how it will be but it will have my movie reviews, if you want to check it out please be my guest!

http://rottentomatoes.com/vine/j/aishacs

Saturday, March 26, 2005

The Future

Well now that I have again made the decision for full time law school, I run across the same article I ran across this time last year that gave me all my self doubts about law school in the first place.

http://www.calicocat.com/2004/08/law-school-big-lie.html

Now I did talk to Huda and I feel a lot better about my decison because she said hey even if you dont practice law you can never go wrong with having more education.

BUT still, that little teeny tiny doubt is still there, lingering and whispering to me sort of affecting my motivation.

I went to monster.com and every attorney job required more than 2 yrs of experience. How do you get experience if no one wil let you in the door with less than two years experience.

Also, I am very interested in intelllectual property, and the market is HOT in atlanta, but they mostly require people who have science backgrounds.... that kinda stinks, I'll have to research how to get around this.....

So yes, still scared, but maybe
I should take it one day at a time...

Not Everyone Is Happy For You

So here we go... Final Evaluation and this is the comment I get from my Boss sitting across the table from me with her pet spy who I will refer to as Dr. Psycho and the Assistant Principal who I'll refer to as "I -must -have -done -something- really- bad- in- a -previous -life- to- deserve -this - job".

Boss: The thing is, *I'm* happy you're in law school, but not everyone is happy for you.
Dr Psycho: "Well I hope no one thinks that person is me, It's not me!*
Silence as we all stare at her, did anyone say you were?

I dont know why I got as upset as I did about this discourse, they didnt give me a bad evaluation but it wasn't neccesarily a good evaluation.

I gave everything I had this year to be the best teacher I could be. I know I could have done more to help certain children in the classroom, but I did what I could, and its not even my interaction or my teaching abilities with the children that they critiqued, they critiqued the fact that I didnt interact with them in a way that they wanted to saying, that they supposed it was the "lawyer in me"

The Lawyer in me????
I never ever thought that they were jealous because its such a silly notion to think that someone would be jealous of someone else when they are just tyring to improve thesmellves. I had been told by people at work and outside of work that they sounded very jealous, but I never believed it until this meeting where these sorts of snide comments came out.

I can't wait till Iam on the opposite side of court facing them one day, now perhaps this truly won't happen... but it's the mental image that keeps me going... Sometimes when I was a kid and I got picked on. To keep me going I would have a mental image of me all grown up and the mean people sitting on a street corner miserable and penniless and I could walk past them feeling good that in the end I got my "revenge"..... it's sad that I ahave to resort to this sort of self-talk to help myself feel better.

In conclusion, if I let their jealousy and bitterness bring me down, they have acheived their ultimate purpose..... so must resist, must recapture the frustration and channel it into my studies.