Resolutions. We all make them. We all break them. At least I do. Each and every year. Sure it starts out hopeful. Lose Weight! Run Marathon! Fight World Hunger! But somehow right around February the resolve for the resolution sort of poof and disappears. And what is a resolution without resolve?
So this year I decided, why riddle the New Year with the burdens of years past? Shouldn't the New Year be a year to start a clean slate, begin anew and proceed to grow instead of fixing the weeds of yesteryear? This New Year I resolve to be done resolving the two goals that seem to pop up like annoying garden gnomes year after year after year after... you know.
I'm sharing my goals publicly. They say (please don't ask me who they are.. I've just heard it a lot from many a they) if you articulate your goal and tell others about it, you're more likely to succeed. I also hope you will share in some of these goals and join my in the journey. I hope to share with you my progress along the way and tips and suggestions on what I've learned. So here are my two goals, to be acheived before 01/01/08 to start the year with a fresh slate.
Goal 1: Each year I make a New Years resolution along with 90% of womankind: Eat healthier. Work out more. Lose Weight. And each year I along with 99.9% of the same group of women give up around February. No more waiting until January feeling guilty and red faced vowing to work out ten times a day and eat nothing but rice cakes and whole wheat noodles. I resolve to work out 5-6 days per week and eat healthier and wiser. No fancy diet plans or pills. No crazy exercise plan or rock climbing shoes. Eat less. Exercise more. Drink more water, drink less soda. Its really not that complicated (at least for me) to lose weights, its just the sticking to it. I resolve to keep my resolve even if the cake is made of chocolate fudge and powdery sugar. I hope to reach my goal of 2 pounds per week until 01/01 because once there I'll be exactly where I want to be. (This will not be easy as I love sugar, and sugar loves me)
Goal 2: Since I could hold a pencil in my hands and compose a sentence I've written stories. If you've been reading this blog you know the writing bug hit me a little while back. Somehow one day as I sat down, with absolutely no intention to write fiction, she came to me. I knew her name, her story, her circumstance and for a few solid weeks I wrote and wrote. Sadly 80 single spaced pages into my novel I came to a full brake stop. A pesky thing called the bar exam, starting a new job, and the dreaded writer's block took over. But it didnt bug me much that pen had not hit paper in weeks until I heard someone say She will never finish the novel. She'll never have the time. I can't let that be. A few years backs randomly switching stations on a treacherous ride home, a man spoke of writing on NPR. He spoke of a family of five and a full time job. The interviewer asked him how he found the time to write. He emphasized that writing is not glamorous. Sometimes writing sucks. But you do it because you must, because the story must be told. Though sometimes inspiration will strike, sometimes it wont. He formed a routine. Two hours a day locked alone in a room with himself and a pen and paper. He did it with a family of five surely I can do it too. I'm not saying it will be a masterpiece but I surely can complete it. NanoWriMo helps people in my boat get up the nerve to finish writing the lingering novel. I am going to do it this year.
So in sum: Lose Weight. Finish Novel. January 1. Simple enough eh?
"The battles that count aren't the ones for gold medals. The struggles within yourself--the invisible, inevitable battles inside all of us--that's where it's at." - Jesse Owens