Wednesday, January 09, 2008

I'm doing it for the tree

I printed out my novel today. It took 10 seconds [give or take] for me to want nothing more than to shred it to pieces and light it on fire. But- what a waste of tree. Isn't it bad enough it got chopped, hauled away from family and friends , turned from a majestic tree into flimsy paper and endured my heinous words against its being? (Plus, setting fire to paper in a confined office space might affect my employability). I could recycle it but where's the satisfaction in that?

Suffice it to say, the second draft is hard. Leaps and bounds harder than the first. You're allowed to stink on the first draft but the second draft should resemble something you could ask a friend to read who won't in turn, turn green and pretend to faint. Its not to say the whole thing is a rambling load of six week old feta cheese, some parts I love BUT- some parts are so heinous I wish to look away with one tear drop in my eye declaring "You are dead to me!"

The trouble is most sites providing advice to wannabe writers focus on the first draft, very few talk about the second though this site which is quite helpful, and this writer says its okay to fall into a pit of despair when staring at your first draft. Its really hard to keep going but I'm going to keep on trucking. If nothing else, I'll do it for the tree.

I love being a writer. What I can't stand is the paperwork. ~Peter De Vries

13 comments:

muse said...

I really really admire your courage Aisha, because courage is what it takes to do this. I would like nothing more to write a book, heck, write a good short story, but an idea here and there is all I have. Keep sharing your struggle, maybe it'll motivate me to do something about it - after the bar that is.

And I cant wait to read your novel once its published. Only a matter of time. ;)

Suroor said...

Congratulations! Mubarak ho! Mabrook!

I'm so proud of you!

Aisha said...

Muse, thank you :) Its much harder this phase, but I'm thankful for your support :)

Suroor, thanks, lol, for what though? :) I haven't done anything

mystic said...

keep going....lol

koonj said...

Mashaallah, Aisha, good work! With all your other work ... this is great.

Aisha said...

Mystic, why the laugher! :)

Koonj.... well thank you :) Its not that great.. like I said almost like six week old feta cheese, but at times, close. :)

koonj said...

your comment at my latest post is hiLLarious. you made me smile, and i dont smile much.
;)

mystic said...

Despair is and 'should be' a natural reaction to first draft, so don't worry..keep moving.

It would be more worrisome if one gets satisfy with first draft !!

Tee/Tracy said...

Great quote! Here's another one for you,

"Writing is easy: all you do is sit staring at a blank sheet of paper until the drops of blood form on your forehead." - Gene Fowler

LOL. Keep going! I need you as inspiration when I actually go back to my novel :p

Anonymous said...

Aisha, the three paragraphs of yours that I read made my day. I have not laughed so good, so real like you made me laugh for a very long time. You just gave some of the best advice on writing that I have ever read. Keep me laughing. Oh yea. I am new at using this contraption so forgive me if I said anything wrong...

Aisha said...

Koonj, LOL well that's good! I love it when I'm funny when I'm not trying! :)

mystic, thanks for your insight :) as always.

Tracy, I heard that quote too, lol. I loved the one I put down because its the adage that teachers would say "I love teaching but i hate the paperwork" and now lawwyers use it too, I couldn't stop laughing when I saw a writer used it too!

Anon, wow thank you so much! I'm glad that this post could brighten your day. Though as far as best advice on writing, lol... not quite :)

Anonymous said...

I know its hard to believe in yourself a lot of the time and im sure its no different when you're trying to write a novel but seriously, stop being so hard on yourself!
I really enjoy reading your blog and im sure your novel is fab. I would buy anything you write in a heartbeat so please be nicer to yourself about it. I dont even know you and even I know you have talent!
Good luck with everything and keep on going!

Aisha said...

Thank you so much anon, your encouragement really means so much to me. Thanks :)

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