I can't believe another year is almost coming to an end. I can't believe I say this every year and each year this sentiment could not be truer. Most amazing is to realize we are approaching a new decade. People sometimes scoff at year end reflections, but I think its beautiful to stop and reflect on the changing of the seasons and the passage of time. If we don't have natural markers such as birthdays, new years, we may never pause and reflect what we have done with our time, and what we can do going forward. This decade has been an amazing one. I got edumacated a lot, got hitched, changed careers three times, lived in three different states, and went through some of the most difficult moments of my life and some of the richest experiences as well.
When the decade began I kept wondering where I'm going and felt anxiety as the horizon looked ambiguous. Now, I realize the future is always ambiguous but that's not the point, the point is not where you are going but the sheer fact that you're blessed enough to go.
Growth and pain are often companions. In this decade and this past year I've had to confront parts of myself I never fully considered, and was forced to reflect on things I never would had life not tested me as it did. Still, as I stand on the precipice of a new year and a new decade, I am finally at peace with the pain because from it I have undeniably grown. You never want to have to sprint uphill to the top of Mount Kenya, but once you've done it there is a profound sense of satisfaction that you were capable of doing so.
Here's to 2010. I pray I will implement the lessons I learned in this decade and particularly this year. I pray to remember the scarcity of time, the importance of holding those we love close to our hearts, and to appreciate the good in our lives and do what we can to learn and gain strength from the challenges placed in our way. And I pray the same for you.