Monday, May 31, 2010

Thoughts on sleep, or the lack thereof

Sleep. I once guarded my sleep like a jealous husband. Sure I enjoyed a late night hangout with friends but the magic number was eight. Namely, I required eight hours of sleep to function be it all in the night hours or trickling into the afternoon. Even in law school where all nighters were a given, I might have stayed up past 3am on many a night, but that only meant I woke up at 11am the next day. Eight. Consecutive hours. I stress the consecutive because while my little boy respects the number eight, [heck he'll even sleep 18 hours on some days] he missed the memo on the whole consecutive thing.

During pregnancy veteran mama friends urged me with bleary eyes to rest as much as you can now! Sleep in for as long as you can stand it! Except that as humans, as opposed to bears, we can't really stock up on sleep via hibernation. So all the lazy Sunday mornings waking up and lazing about don't really help me at 3am as I rock a beautiful babe to sleep.

I snatch sleep when I can but heavy lids are now a constant companion. This past weekend K took a night shift, and my visiting parents took an early morning shift [If you plan to nurse I strongly suggest investing in a Medela since it allows others to help you feed the bebe] and I got two nights of six consecutive hours of sleep! It felt amazing. I heard there comes a time they sleep six hours in a row on the regular. Right now this sounds as mythical as the land of Oz but one can hope.

They say the best things in life are free. As I remember my sleep I know this to be true, but this lack of sleep is because of the truly best thing in my life, the one that has no price because it is truly priceless. Him. For him a thousand sleepless nights are worth it a thousand times over. Alhamdullilah. [And yes Mamus, this is his Zoolander pose, already the genetics are so very apparent!]
Sleep is one of our most intractable attachments. We claw and clutch and crave it. We adorn and worship it. We four hundred thread count it. It is our one sovereign domain. We hide out there; we fantasize and burrow there; we think we can't live without it. You will see that you can live without it- just enough. -Momma Zen

5 comments:

Muslim Wife said...

Ahhh!!! Masha'allah!!! He's absolutely beautiful!!! I'm calling you tonight insha'allah....if I'm not asleep as soon as the little one go down, that is ;)

lovetodaydream said...

He is so gorgeous!!! COngratulations! Regarding sleep...it will pass...I know right now it seems impossible to believe...but there will be a time when the baby will sleep through the night. Each child is different, so me telling you my daughter slept through the night since she was 3 months old might not help becuase yours might do before or after. Are you rocking him in your arms all the time make him sleep? That might seem a great idea now, but later on you will regret it (and your back!). After my daughter was a month and a half more or less I started letting her cry a little and she would sleep again, always making sure she felt my presence there, but not holding her. It's hard to see your kid cry, but it was oh so worth it...

Muslim Wife said...

ok so I didn't call last night because, surprise surprise, my babies weren't sleeping well last night b/c they're sick :( I want to catch up so bad! Insha'allah soon! Congrats again! Little Man is so blessed to have such a wonderful mommy, masha'allah!!

Anonymous said...

What a great picture of Waleed - love the attitude! As somone's already mentioned it DOES get better and you WILL start getting more sleep- and that is when you truly start enjoying motherhood (at least that's how it was for me). Hang in there!

Ash

Anonymous said...

too cute!!!!
pixie

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