Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Sadness is a tree without leaves

Fall is coming, bringing with it wistfulness and backwards glances as you wonder where the time went, where its going, and what could have been. I admire the yellowing foliage but feel a bit verklempt because it is a harbinger of the leafless winter to come.

I'm not feeling particularly cheerful today. All is well in the places that count but today I'm nursing a broken heart. Intellectually I know it will be okay and its just a mountain-sized bump in my road, but right now, at this moment I feel like a tree without leaves. I'm not ready to talk about it yet but someday soon, I will.

Sometimes I wonder: I don't watch TV as much as I once did but I'm online more than ever. Did I just trade one diversion for another? While I can justify using the internet as the pursuit of knowledge, connections with others, and a creative outlet, the truth is, despite its benefits the internet can also create a great deal of mental clutter- and I really need some clarity right now.

So for a little while, I'm going off the grid. I'm hoping a few weeks offline will be what I need to nurse my wounds, dust myself off, get back on course, and keep on keeping on.

In the meantime I hope you are well. See you in a few.

17 comments:

Anonymous said...

Feel better girl :)

Ayesha

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you

katery said...

oh no, i hope you're ok, i'll be here when you get back.

Michele said...

Hugs...

sprogblogger said...

Take care of yourself. Thinking of you and hoping for an end to the sadness.

Zehra said...

The Quran says: "So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief." Take care of yourself, hun. Whatever is bothering you today may not seem that important in the futre. Everything has a way of working itself out in the end.

Damita said...

*hugs* hope you feel better soon

daega99 said...

Hope you feel better soon.

ICLW
http://daega99-arewethereyet.blogspot.com/

cowgirltn said...

Well when you come back from your break your tree will be fuller.

Sarah said...

Hope you enjoy your break. We all need it sometimes.

ICLW #8

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

Hope you feel better soon, and enjoying your break. A break can help a bit sometimes I've found out in the past myself. I'm sure you'll come back when you are ready.

Hugs,
Hannah

*ICLW*

Krissi said...

I also remember feeling like that too when I started my blogs but I think when you're making connections online, its better than wasting away in front of the tube. I do hope you do get some mental clarity from this break. Happy ICLW! (#72 & 106)

rebecca said...

Hoping you find peace and strength to help you on your journey and that your brought what you need during your break.
~ICLW

Lisa said...

All technology brings the potential of adding mental clutter to our lives. In your current state, it's good to recognize what you can let go of in order to ease that feeling. Recently, I went through my emailsand unsubscribed from nearly 5o e-newsletters that appear in my inbox weekly, if not daily. I also cleared out my Contacts list of people with whom I am no longer in touch. The next will be to Unfollow people on my Twitter timeline who have little to say of anyt real value to me. These activities don't require you to interact with anyone while doing them, and gave me a real sense of relief afterwards. Maybe that would help you too.

I wish you better soon.

Lisa (Your Great Life - ILW #63)

Flucky Mom said...

When I think of a story i recently heard about parents being arrested for child neglect b/c they were spending too much time online, I'd say yes, we are definitely trading one distraction for another. But the internet allows us to connect. And on an ICLW week, it's a great reminder that there's more than the terrible news we constantly hear on TV.

Mon said...

Yes, the internet can cause a little mental clutter! Well put! I too am concentrating on life outside the blogosphere(except for this comment!). Hope you feel better real soon.
PS I also love books and writing too!!

kathleen said...

visiting from ICLW..I hope the break gives you peace..your imagery of feeling like a tree without leaves is wonderful..

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