Tuesday, July 05, 2011

Redefining Bliss

Bliss used to be hikes along lava cliffs


or exploring a hidden alley in a small Spanish town


or watching the perfect sunrise from atop an ancient volcano


Tonight is my nine year wedding anniversary and as I lay my son to bed thunder crackling outside my window, chai brewing, sheesha smoke spiraling while Ray Lamontagne croons his haunting lyrics in the background the murkiness of the past few weeks recedes and clarity springs forth: life is full of stumbling blocks and uncertainty but nine years and counting, K's been here to catch me should I fall. And I have. And he has. While the source of my worries still linger like steam on a summer night, I realize the futility of this emotion- worry is just a noose of my own making- it's suffocating grip, a choice. Life can sometimes be a bumpy journey but worry? It solves nothing, but confuses and complicates everything. Tonight I let go of my worries, I look at what I have and realize that prayers are sometimes already answered- we just have to be still enough- and trust enough to see. Tonight I'm not hiking a volcano, or swimming in a lagoon, I'm in PJ's eating FroYo about to watch a Breaking Bad marathon. Nothing in its substance has changed, but my attitude has shifted, and tonight? I'm happy.  Bliss redefined, down to its purest form. Cheesiness I embrace thee: Happy Anniversary K, thank you for being you and for loving me, supporting me, and believing in me every step of the way.



Aint it about time you realize, its not worth keepin score, you win some, you lose some and you let it go. What's the use of stacking on every failure another stone, Til you find you've spent your whole damn life building walls, lonely and old before your time. It took so long to see, the truth was all around me. . . It's not living that you're doing if it feels like dying. - Ray Lamontagne

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Happy Anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pixie

C said...

Happy Anniversary Aisha...

Julia Munroe Martin said...

Bliss redefined--I love that! :) Happy anniversary!

sprogblogger said...

Happy anniversary & thank you for the music link--someone new to go find on iTunes, what wonderful lyrics!

Aamina said...

Another tear jerker post! Gosh. What's up with all this sappy stuff these days? Or maybe I'm just a softie lately... WUAH!!!

Happy anniversary to the two of you! You and Kashif Bhai have shown me what a married team is. Mashallah both of you support each other in every way possible, love each other regardless and when one falls, the other is there to catch them. May Allah bless you two with many more happy years to come. I love you two so much and pray for your familys' eternal happiness inshallah! *hugs*

Aisha said...

C, Pixie, Julia, thanks so much!

Susan- Ray is awesome- very very awesome! Check out his album "til the sun goes black" haunting and just amazing

Aamina, awww what sweet words! *hugs* love you little sis- just luv you.

Lawyer Loves Lunch said...

Happy Anniversary Aisha! :)

katery said...

happy anniversary my friend, many many more to you :)

Aisha said...

Thanks Azmina and Kate!!! :)

Anonymous said...

Heyyy, a very happy wedding anniversary and many many more... InshaAllah.
Cheers,
A

mezba said...

Oooooh that first picture is just so amazing... where is that?

And Happy Anniversary! May you have many, many more.

Aisha said...

Ameen, A :)

Mezba, its from the Big Island of Hawaii, you guys MUST go one day!

kids wear said...

a very happy wedding!!! photo so nice!

Tauqeer said...

Nicely written.

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